Life is funny, with funny being a word of many meanings. We look for certainty in our plans and our dealings with others, and many times that certainty never comes, or we get mixed messages, and even uncertainty. We came to Fort Collins nearly three weeks ago with a definite set of appointments and scheduled activities and will be leaving tomorrow with most of the appointments completed, most of our goals realized, but the certainty we sought, not achieved.
My primary care doctor at the VA for the past seven years, is now retired. Karen and my primary care "civilian" doctor will be retiring at the end of this month and the stress test(s) I took at the VA to resolve my main health concern, came back yesterday with conflicting reports. The cardiologist wrote the word "not" in one place and left it out in another, so the interpretation of the test(s) is unclear and will not be resolved until he returns to work next Tuesday, by which time we will be back in Arkansas and possibly in the hands of the Fayetteville VA for a resolution of the matter. In the "old days" I might have been upset by this situation and created more of a stress on my heart, but I am okay with the situation, because I know there is nothing I can do to change what has happened and worry or anxiety will only make me feel worse.
Life is just a series of events we cannot predict or anticipate and if we try to look for certainty we will usually be disappointed. How we react or respond to each event determines how we succeed or fail and how we feel at the end of each day when we lay down to sleep and whether we sleep and get rested, or restlessly sleep. Life is just a series of yes, no and maybes and for the most part it is out of our control.
Our time in Colorado has been pretty good. We had fun times and sad times; will leave with some matters unresolved, some people we were unable to hook up with, our future still in question, as it was when we arrived.........but the path before us is still firmly in God's hand and under His control. For all these things we are thankful and contented........as committed as ever to ask, seek and knock and trust God for the results. See y'all in Arkansas.
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